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Fire Up Into Fall #5: Monday, Monday…

What have you done this week to achieve your goals?

  •  Get my eating under control: I concentrated on portion size and was able to identify some triggers (large cereal bowls, too much bread in the house, not enough REAL food in the house, etc.).
  • Find 2 days for cardio every week: Still haven’t found them, but I want to start C25K again and found a treadmill plan that should work for me.  I hope to go try it out Wednesday and Sunday this week.
  • Eat dinner at the table 2 times a week: Oh, the table.  Still half a mess.
  • Do not sit in front of the tv on Mondays and Wednesdays until 7PM: I’ve been totally blowing by this.  I was so busy last week, I don’t even know if I watched tv until late…
  • Get on a better sleep schedule: I am much more cognizant of when I am going to bed – however, I still choose to watch CSI with Ted Danson on Wednesdays, because how could I miss that!?!?  Haha!
  • Track my progress: Another sporadic one.  I tracked my food for a few days last week, which was super helpful but still made me feel like every choice had the weight of the world on it.  Is it bad that I just want my food choices to be easier?

 What have you done to make yourself feel fabulous?

I am totally wearing a skirt today that I haven’t worn for 3 years.  I try it on every few months, but I can’t believe that I am actually wearing it.

Its half way through the challenge, you can change 1 or more of your goals (max of 3) if you want to….what are you going to do and why?

Hmmm….

  • Get my eating under control: KEEP
  • Find 2 days for cardio every week: KEEP
  • Eat dinner at the table 2 times a week: As I can’t even eat dinner some nights, I think I am going to roll this into the first one.
  • Do not sit in front of the tv on Mondays and Wednesdays until 7PM: Too stressful and connected to timeframes – I think this one will be Find two ways to relax that do not involve watching television each week.
  • Get on a better sleep schedule: KEEP
  • Track my progress: I think this blog does a good job of tracking what I need to, so I am just dropping this one.

What’s your worst bad habit and have you ever tried to tackle it? Do you want to?

I am an avoider.  I hide from conflicts, confrontation, phone calls, things that make me uncomfortable, etc.  There have been times in my life where I’ve forced myself to do certain things, but I’ve AVOIDED dealing with it…  I know there is part of me that would love not to live like this, but I don’t even know where to start.  I think working on confidence and small victories has been helping.  Maybe one of my goals should be dealing with things as they happen?  It is the anticipation that kills me, most times.

Fun Time: Would you rather have Burgers for feet or Sausages for fingers? 

Burgers for feet.  I talk with my hands and that could get dangerous!

 

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October 17, 2011 Posted by | a case of the Mondays, Fire Up for Fall (FUFF), guilt, Remy, Running, smile more goals | , , , | 6 Comments

Fire Up into Fall #3: Bring on October!

What have you done this week to help get you to your goals?  

Not much, haha!  I keep thinking that work will get LESS stressful or that life will SLOW DOWN; but, I think I know that with the holidays coming full force at me, this is NOT THE CASE!  I need to stop making excuses and make myself a priority.  In order to make this a little easier, my simplified goals for this week are:

  • Eat breakfast at home 2 days
  • Bring my lunch 3 days
  • Clean my kitchen floor
  • Clean my kitchen table
  • Go to bed at 10:30 3 nights

What did you do this week to make yourself feel fabulous?  

I went out to dinner with my guy on Friday and had a wonderful couple of hours away from work, our house, and the puppy; it reminded me of when we first dated and how much fun it was just to tell each other stories.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?  What are your goals?  Ambitions?  

It is so funny you asked.  I love Self magazine.  Last month, they had an article by one of my favorite bloggers/writers, Erin Zammett Ruddy, about whether or not you need a 5 year plan, and, if you do, how to really delve into personal vs. professional, work/life balance, etc.  I started answering the questions, but I am not all the way through yet!  However, I can say that I would love to see myself and my guy with a kid or two (and maybe another puppy!), happy working at a job that lets me be more creative, happy and challenged in my relationship and friendships, and taking some sort of class.

Give us a tip or a fact.  About anything, what is something great that you think everyone should know?  

If you don’t like a certain vegetable, think of at least 1 other way to cook it, especially if something’s texture turns you off   – you could surprise yourself.  For years, I hated all squash and it turns out it was only because I had only had it cooked until it was mush – roasted squash is delicious!  Who knew!?!?!?

Fun Question:  What was the most recent dream you remember?  

I don’t remember my dreams…  I always wake up with a really vivid memory and then forget it immediately.  My guy talks in his sleep, so I remember more about his than my own!

Inspiring picture…  I love fall daisies..

October 3, 2011 Posted by | a case of the Mondays, Fire Up for Fall (FUFF), guilt, photography, Remy, Who am I? | , , , , , | 2 Comments

Fire Up for Fall #2: Let’s try that again!

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What have you done this week to help you achieve your goals?

  1. Get my eating under control:
    • Have a protein based breakfast that includes a piece of fruit
    • Have small, protein and carb based snacks
    • Bring my lunch to work
    • Plan yummy dinners for me and my guy that include new vegetables that we don’t usually have

     It is like I bought everything and forgot about it.  I bought bacon, eggs, and grapes for breakfast – and brought cereal each day.  I brought my lunch to work on Monday and then just gave up because I was so tired/rushed in the mornings.  I planned my dinners, but gave in to having cereal or stuffing a few nights. 

     I think being better organized would help.  Story of my life.  I brought in healthy snacks to have at my desk at work and plan on getting up a little earlier so I can have breakfast at home.  Also, I think I am going to pack my lunch at night (duh, Lindsay) so I have no excuse in the morning.  Hey… I can only go up from here!

  2. Find two days to do my cardio each week:
    I spent Friday night walking around Boston on my way to see Bill Burr, so I am counting that!  I think I pulled a muscle in my right calf, so I skipped my long walk on Sunday to try and get it to feel better.  Hopefully, my leg AND the rainy weather will allow for me to work in some nice time outside this week.  I love fall (and I really don’t mind the rain), but I am done with this humidity.

  3. Eat dinner at the table at least 2 times a week:
    This requires the table be cleaned off of keys, pocket books, my guy’s school stuff, etc.  I hope to clean off the table tonight and we can eat there on Friday and Saturday (which requires KEEPING IT CLEAN all week).

  4. Do not sit in front of the tv until 7PM on Monday and Wednesdays.
    We actually kept the tv off, but did not get much cleaning done.  I have better hopes for this week per my idea for #6.

  5. Get on a better sleep schedule:

    •  Be in bed around 10:30 Sunday-Thursday
    •  Be up by 8:30/9 on the weekends

     I didn’t do TOO badly on this one (although I stayed up to flip between Pan AM and CSI Miami last night).  I am a better worker, girlfriend, and friend when I get enough sleep and I am getting better and both admitting this and acting on it, rather than trying to stay up with my guy who needs much less sleep than I do.

  6. Track my progress:
    I made this whole spreadsheet, which was super-overwhelming.  I love check marks, but hate looking at the week as a failure.  This week, I’ve printed out these goals and mini-goals to post on my fridge so I can just check something off as I clean or pack something.  Much easier, much more in my face, and much less of a downer.  It will be more like Things to do… than Things I didn’t do…

What have you done to make yourself feel fabulous?

Not enough!  But, I hung out with some friends on Saturday night and watched The A-Team (the recent movie) and laughed way too much.  I also bought a few magazines and just sat on the couch reading for a couple of hours on Saturday afternoon, which was wonderful and relaxing.  I heart magazines.

What is your talent? What are you good at?

Oh, gosh.  I’ve been told that I am good at presenting or reading aloud (from my theater days), but something I’m super proud of is that I roast a really good chicken.  I am horrible and anxious in the kitchen (I keep an album of my cooking disasters on Facebook), but I just GET roasting for some reason.  It was like the universe took pity on me the time I mistook a screw top wine for a cork and attacked it with an ice pick when the wine opener didn’t work.

What’s been the highlight of your week?

I saw Bill Burr at the Wilbur Theater on Saturday night.  He was hilarious and it was awesome to just sit and laugh for a couple of hours!

Fun Question: What’s your guilty pleasure TV?

I love my shows (it is a recurring theme on my blog).  I’m not really guilty about any of them! 

But, I guess I’ll go with Criminal Minds.  Even though it creeps me out regularly, I love it (even when I have anxiety attacks in bed because I am convinced there is a serial killer in my house  – even though it is usually my puppy walking around on the hardwood!).  I stopped watching last season when they fired all the female actors, but caught up over the summer when they hired them back.  It is one of those shows that I don’t advertise that I watch, but I can talk about in great detail if someone brings it up!

Inspiring picture:

This is my puppy, Remy.  How can I not be inspired when I have this to go home to?

September 26, 2011 Posted by | a case of the Mondays, Fire Up for Fall (FUFF), General Nerdiness, guilt, Remy | , , , , , | 3 Comments

A fat-bottomed bob can change your life…

Mental Health Week Update:
Well, I found some new shoes.  Caught up on sleep.  I’ve cut my hair.  Found some shirts.  Drove around a lot.

But, do I feel any different?
Actually, I do.  Getting my hair cut always makes me feel like a better version of myself, even if my bangs are crooked or my layers freaking out (hey, that’s what curly hair does when not treated with respect). 

It’s the coerced way of looking at myself differently.

I don’t always see myself – I see my mistakes, my failures, my bad choices, everything wrong multiplied. 

A new haircut always looks so foreign that I see, for a moment, what I look like right then and there.  Simply, me.  And that is what is inspiring me for the rest of the week and as long as I can hold onto that moment.

So, I haven’t worked out.  And, I haven’t eaten super well. But…  Monday, my guy and I went to a diner for breakfast and then ran around taking pictures of Fort Revere; it was fun and creative (and all without the benefit of a shower and fresh makeup).  Then, we took Remy to a state park and explored.  And, it was awesome.

Yes, our cable and internet were our until today.  I don’t know if we would have gone if we had it back, but I’m so gratefully for being pushed out of my couch-tv-eat-sleep routine…  This is what I needed.  This is who I want to be.

Today, I got a fat-bottomed bob.  How can I not call this vacation a success when even the name of my haircut is freaking awesome?

And, it’s only Wednesday.  I still have 4 more days off…

September 7, 2011 Posted by | back story, my hair, photography, Remy, Who am I? | , , | Leave a comment

If a tree falls in my yard, does anyone hear me stuffing my face?

AKA: Life during the Tree-pocalyspe

I need to start this off by saying how lucky I am.  I still have a house and hot water.  No one I know was hurt or killed by the hurricane. 

Hurricane Irene knocked one of my neighbor’s trees down, ripping the power and cable lines from my house.  After multiple calls, we found out that we needed a permit, an electrician and an inspection before they could even consider turning our power back on. 

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Now I love my guy, but we know that a week in a dark house would end in a Thunderdome moment (2 people enter, 1 person leaves); I’m a reader.  He is NOT.  + a puppy.

So after spending Sunday night in the dark, we hightailed it to a hotel.  Now, mind you, this hotel has a kitchenette IN OUR ROOM.  And a fitness center.  And free laundry (?!).  But, I have used this week to eat my way through the fast food spectrumMcDonalds.  BK.  Chips.  Pizza…

… and I have been super sick every night!  Guess I can’t live like I was still in college anymore, can I?  Haha!  Suffice it to say, I will be quite glad to get back into a routine.  I just bought 10lb weights before the storm!  Bring it on!

And, I am super excited to clean out my fridge and start over.  For real.  New condiments.  All those hidden freezer cookies (what?  You don’t hide emergency cookie dough in your freezer?) gone.  Bring on the vegetables and fruits!  Well… after I get the smell out of my house.  At least we got someone to take all of the frozen steak tips and pork tenderloin.  I may need to disappear when everything is being thrown out.  YUCK!

So, it has been a quiet week, blog wise, with good reason.  Not much healthy going on.  However, next week is my mental health week (a staycation, really).  I plan to get back into good routines and good habits and cull out those stress points (clean out my closet, get some clothes that fit, new hair cut, etc.)…

If you had 7 days to change your life, what would you do?

August 31, 2011 Posted by | Remy, tree-pocalypse | , , , , , | Leave a comment

A Better Outlook and Less Snakes for One, Please…

Last week was overwhelming.  Hence, radio (blog) silence.

There are major changes going on at my day job.  I still have a job, which is wonderful, but my role and boss and structure will be changing and we are currently in a month of limbo and I just hate it.  Not knowing is not fun.

And, then, my guy went to New Hampshire for the weekend (which is usually no biggie – I am not as hysterical being home alone anymore – bumps in the night are not my friend).  However, as we were saying goodbye with a rousing game of fetch (with the puppy, of course, not just the two of us as that would be super weird), he told me to back away into the house.  I should have listened to him (but don’t tell him I said that), but I stepped forward instead and there it was.  A snake.  A SNAKE!

…ok.  It was a tiny little garden snake.  But, it was a snake all the same.  Creepy, slimy little buggers.  When I went to take the puppy out later that night – in flip flops and my glasses – something wet and slimy touched my foot.  It was probably a lead, but, in my head, it was the SNAKE!  I tried to run, hit the edge of the deck with my poor big toe and sliced it down the side and basically fell into the house.

I have one of those dogs that always looks like he is smiling, but, I swear, this time he was laughing at me.

I didn’t totally give up on the week, though, which is a huge win for me.

  • I still went to boot camp (Thursday night for Muy Thai punches and kicks, Saturday for the circuit – which I probably should have skipped with my toe and all…  I spent the rest of the weekend icing that and my knee.  Turkish Get Ups are not my friend either).
  • I didn’t get fast food or movie popcorn while my guy was gone (I tend to use his absence as an excuse to go back to my secret single behaviors involving McDonalds and buttered popcorn as my only food sources).
  • I dyed my hair reddish and did a lot of thinking.  This is my first semester not teaching (as my second job) and I really want to use my time to be happier and have fun.

And, I still planned out my first week of easing into Eating Clean.  My kickass friend Jill (who is super inspiring!) has had a lot of success with it.  My goal is to work up to “eating clean” for 80% of the time, so I can enjoy my 20% without the guilt I have been feeling lately.  I feel like I am always thinking about food, which is not where I want to live my life.  I want to  stress less, eat better, move around, and SMILE MORE.  Life is not that bad.  I need to cheer up, ASAP!

For example, I get to work at 7:45 and have a bowl of cereal and a Nutri-Grain bar.  By 9AM, I’m hungry, so I have some fig newtons.  By 11AM, I am starving, so I have a roll and another Nutri-Grain bar for “lunch…”  And, on it goes.

I am hoping that my incorporating some of the Eating Clean principles into my diet, it will help me have the energy to do everything that I want to do…  I only have 3 months or so to finish my 33 Things to do While I am 33 list – I need to get moving!

This week’s Smile More Goals:

  • Have a protein, complex carb, and fruit/vegetable at every meal
  • Try three new recipes and write about them
  • Have an awesome anniversary dinner with my guy this weekend
  • Get some sleep
  • Take 4 walks
  • Stop taking everything so seriously

August 22, 2011 Posted by | 33 Things to do While I'm 33, a case of the Mondays, boot camp, eating clean, guilt, Remy, smile more goals, Who am I? | , , | Leave a comment

5 Things I’m Loving Right Now Friday #1

I tend to write a lot about things that upset me or frustrate me, so, in an effort to be more positive (apparently answering the phone with “what’s wrong?” repeatedly is a cry for help), I’m going to try and focus my Friday posts on 5 things that rocked my world each week.

  1. Trader Joe’s Sea Salt Brownies: I had them a month ago and I can’t get them out of my head.  For those of us who only like sweet with salty, these are the perfect treat.  And, they’re petites, so you get three little bites as a serving, which is perfect if you can stop yourself.
  2.  Danny Pudi: I am a huge fan of Community.  Maybe it is because I teach at a community college part time; maybe it is because I was not as good of a student as people thought I was, maybe because it is freaking hilarious.  The entire ensemble is strong, flexible, and smart, but Danny Pudi just makes the show for me.  Abed is unconsciously snarky, innocent, calculating, and genuine.  This links to a mock Fringe audition Danny Pudi did, but I just listened to him on the Nerdist podcast at the gym this week and his mix of heart, humor and Polish dancing is right up my alley.
  3. Nick Flynn’s Another Bullshit Night in Suck City: Nick Flynn is one of my favorite poets (“First thing we should do / if we see each other again is to make / a cage of our bodies—inside we can place / whatever still shines.”), but, it is this memoir that I return to constantly.  Not to get too personal, it touches on a lot of themes close to my heart and the portrayal of mental illness, family, volunteerism and aggression is lovely, in a dirty and funny way.  And, apparently, it is going to be a movie.
  1. Remy: I have a puppy. His name is Remy and he is a wheaten terrier that is turning 2 next week (and, yes, he is getting presents).  It is practically impossible to have a bad day when 35 lbs of love launches himself at you from a couch as you walk in the door.  My dog is always smiling, even when he kicks me so that he can have the center of the bed…
  1. Working Out Instead of Acting Out: This has been a super-rough week at my day job.  The old Lindsay would have gone to the store after work each day; bought a magazine, a box of Frosted Flakes, and some croissants; and just sit on the couch eating her feelings all night.  Not this week.  Not this Lindsay.  This week, my boyfriend and I hit Best Buy for some Tax Free Weekend prep on Monday, Wednesday I hit the gym for a 35 minute run, and yesterday, I went to boot camp (although, I did cry a little listening to Adele on the drive down) and worked as hard as I could.  I love, Love, LOVE that exercise is becoming my go to for stress.  That is the person that I want to be.

So, what does the weekend have in store for me?  Boot camp on Saturday AM (I think we are doing Thai punches and kicks), Tax Free shopping on Saturday afternoon (thank god, as my IPod died on Wednesday – RIP Mini; you were a good friend), movie night Saturday night and a Sunday of visiting the parents and hanging with my guy and a friend.

And, hey, it can’t be worse than this week!

Yeah, I need to work on that positivity thing… haha!

August 12, 2011 Posted by | 5 Things I’m Loving Right Now Friday, Remy, Who am I? | , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment