Cubicle to Fit-ish

How a wimp becomes fit(ish)

Fire Up into Fall #6: T-minus 5 Days Until Vacation

What have you done to achieve your goals this week?

  • Get my eating under control: Slowly but surely.  I brought my lunch to work every day and focused on portion sizes when I was at home.  I still need more fruits and veggies (well… ANY fruits and veggies), but I am on the right track!
  • Find 2 days for cardio every week: This should be so easy… I don’t know if it is that I am going on vacation on Saturday and I’ve been stressing over getting ready or if I am still too exhausted from moving to 3 days a week of boot camp, but I just don’t have the initiative to go to the gym.  I hope to, at least, walk around work (there is a ¾ mile walking path) at least twice this week…
  • Find two ways to relax that do not involve watching television each weekLove this new goal.  This week, Remy and I played a massive game of tug and I made a new mix CD (I am so old school). 
  • Get on a better sleep schedule: This is actually happening, too.  We left a Halloween party around 11:30 so I could get 8 hours of sleep.

What have you done to make yourself feel fabulous?

I got my hair trimmed in preparation for my vacation AND I bought a new pair of pants that I absolutely love.  I don’t usually try on GAP clothes as they are a weird length and hip fit on me; however, this time I just went for it and now I have super comfy pair of blue pants that work for both work and my weekends.  AND they were on sale.  How fabulous is that!?!?

Do you listen to music when you work out? What gets you fired up?

It depends on what I am doing.  Boot camp is a toss up – I don’t get to choose.  When I run, if I am going for speed, I listen to super motivating and fun songs (fun to a former theater person, punk loving, nerd like me – Bright Eyes, Avenue Q, Adele, Ben Folds, Bo Burnham, Ryan Adams, Urinetown: the musical, Dropkick Murphys, Against Me!, Kelly Clarkson, etc.). 

But, if I am going for distance, I listen to a podcast (like the Nerdist one) so I can really concentrate on what they are talking about, instead of how much further I have to go.

What’s your guilty pleasure music? How does it make you feel?

I am never guilty about my music choices – I rock out in my car most days!  But, I have hidden my love for certain Jason Mraz songs as they make my guy laugh at me (he needs to learn that not everyone is as into Norwegian death metal as he is, haha).

 If today were a song what song would it be?

New Slang by the Shins.  Really smooth, peppy, and Zen.


Here is Remy getting a new perspective on things! 




October 24, 2011 Posted by | a case of the Mondays, Fire Up for Fall (FUFF), General Nerdiness, kick kick punch punch, music, my hair, podcasts, vacation | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

5 Things I’m Loving Right Now Friday #3

I am so hopped up on Dayquil that this could go wrong very quickly.

This week has not been what I wanted it to be.  I was so excited about getting back into a routine that I chose ANY routine – not my healthy, small and manageable goal routine.  So there was a lot of cereal eaten, not so many vegetables, and sleep was non-existent.

But, I made it to boot camp on Tuesday and Thursday.  Tuesday was a big win.  I spent the day at my day job’s All Company Service day – a great concept, but not as fun when you are picking up trash and weeding sea grass on Carson Beach in a down pour.  At boot camp, Tuesday was a crazy circuit – burpees with rope slams… box step ups with a high knee…  Everyone was shocked I actually went after a long, wet day, but I didn’t want to let myself down.

Last night, we did Thai, but it was all about blocking.  Strangely, I don’t enjoy blocking as much as I do punching, haha!

Here we go…

  1. Fall TV Shows: What better motivation is there to get my butt in gear than the fact that I have new shows to watch at night!?!  I heart my DVR (as we all know), so I have plenty of things to watch Saturday afternoon.  The rumor of a Doctor Who reference on Community has my nerdy heart aflutter…
  2.  My new pillow: A couple of weeks ago, I woke up and could barely turn my neck.  Boot camp was not fun that day – I couldn’t even do a crunch!  It turns out my pillow was so malformed that it was physically hurting me as I slept.  $10 later, I have a lovely hypo-allergenic pillow that I am trying not to misshape when I read in bed (I tend to twist and turn pillows to prop my glasses up on my face while on my side – SO LAZY).
  3. Summer The West Wing recaps on the TV Club: I love The Onion, but I love AV Club more.  Quirky, critical, and honest reviews of TV shows that I actually watch.  They have a lot of great interviews, as well.  The West Wing is in my top 5 favorite shows ever, so I really enjoy reading someone’s views on each season, especially since some time has past since they first aired.  A truly good show only becomes better with age, not dated and irrelevant.
  4. Dayquil: Because it got me through this work day.
  5. Random Thank Yous: Sometimes I forget how much a kind word can change a day around.  I was miserable in boot camp last night (on the edge of a cold, not enjoying being hit in the head, messing up my hair…), when my partner said “thanks for sparring with me.”  Something so little, but something so nice.

September 23, 2011 Posted by | 5 Things I’m Loving Right Now Friday, boot camp, Doctor Who, General Nerdiness, my hair | , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A fat-bottomed bob can change your life…

Mental Health Week Update:
Well, I found some new shoes.  Caught up on sleep.  I’ve cut my hair.  Found some shirts.  Drove around a lot.

But, do I feel any different?
Actually, I do.  Getting my hair cut always makes me feel like a better version of myself, even if my bangs are crooked or my layers freaking out (hey, that’s what curly hair does when not treated with respect). 

It’s the coerced way of looking at myself differently.

I don’t always see myself – I see my mistakes, my failures, my bad choices, everything wrong multiplied. 

A new haircut always looks so foreign that I see, for a moment, what I look like right then and there.  Simply, me.  And that is what is inspiring me for the rest of the week and as long as I can hold onto that moment.

So, I haven’t worked out.  And, I haven’t eaten super well. But…  Monday, my guy and I went to a diner for breakfast and then ran around taking pictures of Fort Revere; it was fun and creative (and all without the benefit of a shower and fresh makeup).  Then, we took Remy to a state park and explored.  And, it was awesome.

Yes, our cable and internet were our until today.  I don’t know if we would have gone if we had it back, but I’m so gratefully for being pushed out of my couch-tv-eat-sleep routine…  This is what I needed.  This is who I want to be.

Today, I got a fat-bottomed bob.  How can I not call this vacation a success when even the name of my haircut is freaking awesome?

And, it’s only Wednesday.  I still have 4 more days off…

September 7, 2011 Posted by | back story, my hair, photography, Remy, Who am I? | , , | Leave a comment

I Need to Focus on my 80%

I keep gaining weight.  I know it’s just five pounds and, in the long run, it won’t matter, but I am super-frustrated.  Not at the five pounds.  At myself.

For the longest time, I kept telling myself it was muscle.  Like, “I’m not at a plateau, I’m just gaining SO MUCH muscle from boot camp that it is negating my weight loss because I’m so out of shape.”  Or, “I gained weight this week, but it’s muscle.  I can tell.”

I can’t tell.  And I don’t think it is muscle, anymore.  It’s my eating habits.

I’ve been working out consistently for the first time in my life.  I go to boot camp twice a week.  I run at the gym on Tuesdays.  I wear my pedometer and try and be as active as I can (even walking around my work in this freaking humidity so that my hair looks like the love child between a perm and an unkempt potted plant).  I actually like exercising.  I look forward to boot camp.  I get excited when I can finally do a curl and press with the 12lb weights and get them both pressed at the same time (up until Saturday, I had to lift one at a time because I thought I’d crack my head open – HUGE win!).  When I run at the gym, I am super-hyped because I am RUNNING!  Not walking.  It is awesome and I love it.

But I keep gaining weight.

It was both vanity and my desire to be fit(ish) that pushed me to start eating better and begin working out (6 months of being weak and sick with vacation pics where I was 40lbs heavier are great motivators, haha).  I joined WW Online.  I started (and stopped and started and stopped) walking on a treadmill at the gym.  I made an effort.  Then, my workouts got kicked up a notch when I joined boot camp and I’ve been really consistent ever since with the working out.  But, WW gets old for me and I start lying on my tracker (or not tracking at all).  Then, I stop bringing my lunch and go back to having cheezits and fig newtons or potato chips and oreos.  Then, I make cereal a dessert and it is no wonder I am gaining weight.

I keep reading that losing weight is 20% what you put in at the gym and 80% what you put into yourself (which fuels what your body does before, during, and after the gym).  I need to start focusing on what I am eating so I don’t slide back to where I was.  But, I love food.  I watch food tv every afternoon.  I am trying to learn how to cook (trying and learn being the operative words – who knew you could roast a chicken upside down?!).  I don’t want to become super manic about what, when, and how I eat, but I need to find a way to eat better food.  Real food.  That doesn’t come out of box.

I’m easing into this.  Extremes are not my friend.  This week, I am focusing on bringing my lunch every day (yay chicken and veggies) and not having cereal for dinner.  Next, I am going to read up on whole food based eating plans.  I don’t want to give up yummy food (or bread.  Or dessert.  Or cookies.), I just want to eat BETTER yummy food.

We’ll see.  At least I know I’m the problem.  Now I need to be the solution.

August 8, 2011 Posted by | a case of the Mondays, back story, boot camp, guilt, my hair, Running, Who am I? | , , | 2 Comments

Getting Away from All or Nothing

For the past couple of months, I’ve been wearing a pedometer for work (I work in health insurance, so they have a huge wellness program where you can participate in different programs and earn a day off for the following year; this initiative gives you a certain number of points for however many steps you take with a points goal for the entire 6 months it runs).  Now, I may not be the most active person, but I’ve always felt that I did a good job moving around during the day.  I try to get up from my cubicle every hour, even if it is just to walk and get some water, and 9 times out of 10, I take the stairs instead of the elevator – unless I am REALLY late for a meeting!  I even do the 15 minute walking path around the building 1 or 2 times a day (unless it is wicked humid, raining, or a super awful day).

However, turns out I am super wrong (this is probably why people keep food and activity journals).  Our goal is to take 7,000 steps a day.  On Tuesdays when I run at the gym, I hit 12,000.  I don’t wear the pedometer at bootcamp (the first pedometer is free, but you have to pay to replace it and I don’t want to break it), but on Thursdays, I usually hit between 5,000-7,500 even without wearing for my class.  Fridays, when I go out shopping with a friend, I usually hit between 5,000-7,500, too.  On these days, my mind is usually on my health (I eat super well and try and be more active on days I work out, and I am always concerned with going too nuts at Friday night dinner with my friend, so I try to be more active to balance off the deliciousness).

It’s the other days – Mondays, Wednesdays, and Sundays, that I barely break 3,000.  It is so bad.  And, on Mondays and Wednesdays, I take most of my steps at work – even with walking around the building (1,500 steps) – and barely 500-1,000 once I get home from work.  AND I have a puppy… who loves to RUN OUTSIDE (preferably after a rabbit).  Yesterday, Sunday, I didn’t even make it to 2,000.

I have written before about being a person of extremes, but it hits so much harder when you are looking at a chart of you activity and it is mountains when you want it to be a straight line (or, an upwards trend, at least).  I read all the time about how yoyo dieting is so dangerous and how consistent exercise and activity is practically the best investment you can make for yourself.  Consistency has always been my downfall (well, one of my downfalls, haha), but I’ve never really seen how inconsistent I am.

I think I am going to make a goal to do something active every day this week (be it walk around the building twice or take Remy – the puppy referenced earlier – to the park to run around, or just jump rope in my backyard) that I don’t have a scheduled workout.  I don’t want to be all or nothing – I want to find a happy medium.  I love lazy days where I watch too much Doctor Who or Community, or go to multiple movies, or read read read.  But, I like the me that wants to be moving and active and strong just as much.  There has to be a balance between Lazy Lindsay and Active Lindsay – I just haven’t found it yet.  I don’t want to burn out, but I do want to keep progressing.  I never knew how much I could push myself before I started all of this.  I just have to trust my body and mind to tell me when I am pushing too hard and know when to rest and be lazy because I need it (not just because it is easier).

Hopefully, I can pick this up next Monday and have made 7,000 steps (at least!) every day this week.  That would be a wonderful way to end the month…  I am not a summer person (bring on the fall), but this one has been quite enlightening.  I am so ready for the heat way to be done, though, and so is my hair!

July 25, 2011 Posted by | my hair, pedometer, Running, Who am I? | Leave a comment

Big Hair and Fast Feet

I totally ran at 5 mph tonight!  It was awesome! 

Usually I do intervals  at a #1 incline (run for 3 minutes at 4.5 mph, walk for three minutes at 3.5; run/walk for 4 minutes each; then 5; then back to 4 and 3).  With my warmup/cooldown, it winds up being 50 minutes or so.

One of my 33 Things… is to run a 12 minute mile – which winds up being a little faster than treadmill 5 mph for me.  I’ve been slowly working my way back to actually running (rather than walking and giving up) so I don’t burn out or hurt myself, but today I just went for it: a whole 4 minutes at 5 mph!

In my head, the difference between 4 and 5 was HUGE!  In reality, not that different.  My legs felt heavy towards the end, but I could have gone longer.  Maybe I’ll try my whole next session at 5 mph…  Hopefully, this energy will carry over to bootcamp on Thursday – I know I’m gonna be sore!

Progress (and proving myself wrong) is lovely – especially with this humidity.  Could my hair be bigger?  Good grief…

July 12, 2011 Posted by | 33 Things to do While I'm 33, boot camp, my hair, Running | Leave a comment