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Fire Up Into Fall #5: Monday, Monday…

What have you done this week to achieve your goals?

  •  Get my eating under control: I concentrated on portion size and was able to identify some triggers (large cereal bowls, too much bread in the house, not enough REAL food in the house, etc.).
  • Find 2 days for cardio every week: Still haven’t found them, but I want to start C25K again and found a treadmill plan that should work for me.  I hope to go try it out Wednesday and Sunday this week.
  • Eat dinner at the table 2 times a week: Oh, the table.  Still half a mess.
  • Do not sit in front of the tv on Mondays and Wednesdays until 7PM: I’ve been totally blowing by this.  I was so busy last week, I don’t even know if I watched tv until late…
  • Get on a better sleep schedule: I am much more cognizant of when I am going to bed – however, I still choose to watch CSI with Ted Danson on Wednesdays, because how could I miss that!?!?  Haha!
  • Track my progress: Another sporadic one.  I tracked my food for a few days last week, which was super helpful but still made me feel like every choice had the weight of the world on it.  Is it bad that I just want my food choices to be easier?

 What have you done to make yourself feel fabulous?

I am totally wearing a skirt today that I haven’t worn for 3 years.  I try it on every few months, but I can’t believe that I am actually wearing it.

Its half way through the challenge, you can change 1 or more of your goals (max of 3) if you want to….what are you going to do and why?

Hmmm….

  • Get my eating under control: KEEP
  • Find 2 days for cardio every week: KEEP
  • Eat dinner at the table 2 times a week: As I can’t even eat dinner some nights, I think I am going to roll this into the first one.
  • Do not sit in front of the tv on Mondays and Wednesdays until 7PM: Too stressful and connected to timeframes – I think this one will be Find two ways to relax that do not involve watching television each week.
  • Get on a better sleep schedule: KEEP
  • Track my progress: I think this blog does a good job of tracking what I need to, so I am just dropping this one.

What’s your worst bad habit and have you ever tried to tackle it? Do you want to?

I am an avoider.  I hide from conflicts, confrontation, phone calls, things that make me uncomfortable, etc.  There have been times in my life where I’ve forced myself to do certain things, but I’ve AVOIDED dealing with it…  I know there is part of me that would love not to live like this, but I don’t even know where to start.  I think working on confidence and small victories has been helping.  Maybe one of my goals should be dealing with things as they happen?  It is the anticipation that kills me, most times.

Fun Time: Would you rather have Burgers for feet or Sausages for fingers? 

Burgers for feet.  I talk with my hands and that could get dangerous!

 

October 17, 2011 Posted by | a case of the Mondays, Fire Up for Fall (FUFF), guilt, Remy, Running, smile more goals | , , , | 6 Comments

Fire Up into Fall #4: Where did Monday Go?

What have you done this week to achieve your goals?

Small victories…  I made it to boot camp when I didn’t want to go.  I ate vegetables most nights.  I brought my breakfast to work every day and had mostly healthy lunches.  I caught up on sleep during this LONG weekend, so hopefully I will continue on with these small wins this week! 

I am starting to track my food again (my portion control has gone out the window – cereal bowls are SO BIG these days – and I am starting to consider bread a meal again) which is helping, as is being more forgiving of myself.  Goals are great, but so is being able to adapt to and accept what life is doling out on any given day…

What have you done this week to make yourself feel fabulous?

I slept.  That sounds so small, but I had a long weekend and I made sure that I just crashed at least two of the nights.  I am a better person if I get enough sleep.  There were a few moments last week when my guy was looking at me like I was a harpy and I knew if I could just rest a little, I would feel more like myself (even though, I am so over tired that sometimes I feel like the tired, hangry me is the real me – haha!).

What’s your go to food or activity when you’ve had a bad day?

What IS my go to food/activity or what do I WISH they were?  Haha!  Bread/tv/magazines are where I land when I need comfort, but I am making a concerted effort to change that.  I am trying to look at boot camp and the gym as my comfort or stress relief, rather than trying to make myself feel better by eating or buying something.  Or, I am trying to reward myself with experiences.  I love going to the movies, so if I can be get through this week without crashing full force into a loaf of blueberry strudel bread, I am going to go to the movies on Friday!

What’s the last thing you did you are really proud of?

Next week will be 6 months that I’ve been in boot camp.  As someone who never really exercised regularly (I’m good for a week or two and then I’m done), this is a huge moment for me.  I can see so much improvement in my strength, endurance, and balance – but, I look forward to exercising now, which is a huge win.  I’ve always wanted to be one of those people who like to work out and are strong and fit and I really feel like I am on my way!

What was your favorite subject in school?  Your least?

English/Literature/Writing were my favorites in high school – they were a chance to be creative and talk about books and film.  In undergrad, it was my theater performance classes.  I was a double major in English and Theater (and I had two jobs), but the time I spent in rehearsal and working on play analysis and character was the most fun I’ve ever had.  Undergrad was like my high school (as my high school was like hell), so those years were when I really feel I found myself and what I believe in.

 Least favorite was penmanship and geometry.  I have the worst handwriting (I warn my classes that they need to stop me and ask for a translation); I love math, but I am not good with shapes and things like that.  Now, give me some algebra and I can do it.

This picture inspires me because I am heading back to Universal Orlando in a couple of weeks!

October 11, 2011 Posted by | boot camp, Fire Up for Fall (FUFF), guilt, Who am I? | , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Fire Up into Fall #3: Bring on October!

What have you done this week to help get you to your goals?  

Not much, haha!  I keep thinking that work will get LESS stressful or that life will SLOW DOWN; but, I think I know that with the holidays coming full force at me, this is NOT THE CASE!  I need to stop making excuses and make myself a priority.  In order to make this a little easier, my simplified goals for this week are:

  • Eat breakfast at home 2 days
  • Bring my lunch 3 days
  • Clean my kitchen floor
  • Clean my kitchen table
  • Go to bed at 10:30 3 nights

What did you do this week to make yourself feel fabulous?  

I went out to dinner with my guy on Friday and had a wonderful couple of hours away from work, our house, and the puppy; it reminded me of when we first dated and how much fun it was just to tell each other stories.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?  What are your goals?  Ambitions?  

It is so funny you asked.  I love Self magazine.  Last month, they had an article by one of my favorite bloggers/writers, Erin Zammett Ruddy, about whether or not you need a 5 year plan, and, if you do, how to really delve into personal vs. professional, work/life balance, etc.  I started answering the questions, but I am not all the way through yet!  However, I can say that I would love to see myself and my guy with a kid or two (and maybe another puppy!), happy working at a job that lets me be more creative, happy and challenged in my relationship and friendships, and taking some sort of class.

Give us a tip or a fact.  About anything, what is something great that you think everyone should know?  

If you don’t like a certain vegetable, think of at least 1 other way to cook it, especially if something’s texture turns you off   – you could surprise yourself.  For years, I hated all squash and it turns out it was only because I had only had it cooked until it was mush – roasted squash is delicious!  Who knew!?!?!?

Fun Question:  What was the most recent dream you remember?  

I don’t remember my dreams…  I always wake up with a really vivid memory and then forget it immediately.  My guy talks in his sleep, so I remember more about his than my own!

Inspiring picture…  I love fall daisies..

October 3, 2011 Posted by | a case of the Mondays, Fire Up for Fall (FUFF), guilt, photography, Remy, Who am I? | , , , , , | 2 Comments

Fire Up for Fall #2: Let’s try that again!

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What have you done this week to help you achieve your goals?

  1. Get my eating under control:
    • Have a protein based breakfast that includes a piece of fruit
    • Have small, protein and carb based snacks
    • Bring my lunch to work
    • Plan yummy dinners for me and my guy that include new vegetables that we don’t usually have

     It is like I bought everything and forgot about it.  I bought bacon, eggs, and grapes for breakfast – and brought cereal each day.  I brought my lunch to work on Monday and then just gave up because I was so tired/rushed in the mornings.  I planned my dinners, but gave in to having cereal or stuffing a few nights. 

     I think being better organized would help.  Story of my life.  I brought in healthy snacks to have at my desk at work and plan on getting up a little earlier so I can have breakfast at home.  Also, I think I am going to pack my lunch at night (duh, Lindsay) so I have no excuse in the morning.  Hey… I can only go up from here!

  2. Find two days to do my cardio each week:
    I spent Friday night walking around Boston on my way to see Bill Burr, so I am counting that!  I think I pulled a muscle in my right calf, so I skipped my long walk on Sunday to try and get it to feel better.  Hopefully, my leg AND the rainy weather will allow for me to work in some nice time outside this week.  I love fall (and I really don’t mind the rain), but I am done with this humidity.

  3. Eat dinner at the table at least 2 times a week:
    This requires the table be cleaned off of keys, pocket books, my guy’s school stuff, etc.  I hope to clean off the table tonight and we can eat there on Friday and Saturday (which requires KEEPING IT CLEAN all week).

  4. Do not sit in front of the tv until 7PM on Monday and Wednesdays.
    We actually kept the tv off, but did not get much cleaning done.  I have better hopes for this week per my idea for #6.

  5. Get on a better sleep schedule:

    •  Be in bed around 10:30 Sunday-Thursday
    •  Be up by 8:30/9 on the weekends

     I didn’t do TOO badly on this one (although I stayed up to flip between Pan AM and CSI Miami last night).  I am a better worker, girlfriend, and friend when I get enough sleep and I am getting better and both admitting this and acting on it, rather than trying to stay up with my guy who needs much less sleep than I do.

  6. Track my progress:
    I made this whole spreadsheet, which was super-overwhelming.  I love check marks, but hate looking at the week as a failure.  This week, I’ve printed out these goals and mini-goals to post on my fridge so I can just check something off as I clean or pack something.  Much easier, much more in my face, and much less of a downer.  It will be more like Things to do… than Things I didn’t do…

What have you done to make yourself feel fabulous?

Not enough!  But, I hung out with some friends on Saturday night and watched The A-Team (the recent movie) and laughed way too much.  I also bought a few magazines and just sat on the couch reading for a couple of hours on Saturday afternoon, which was wonderful and relaxing.  I heart magazines.

What is your talent? What are you good at?

Oh, gosh.  I’ve been told that I am good at presenting or reading aloud (from my theater days), but something I’m super proud of is that I roast a really good chicken.  I am horrible and anxious in the kitchen (I keep an album of my cooking disasters on Facebook), but I just GET roasting for some reason.  It was like the universe took pity on me the time I mistook a screw top wine for a cork and attacked it with an ice pick when the wine opener didn’t work.

What’s been the highlight of your week?

I saw Bill Burr at the Wilbur Theater on Saturday night.  He was hilarious and it was awesome to just sit and laugh for a couple of hours!

Fun Question: What’s your guilty pleasure TV?

I love my shows (it is a recurring theme on my blog).  I’m not really guilty about any of them! 

But, I guess I’ll go with Criminal Minds.  Even though it creeps me out regularly, I love it (even when I have anxiety attacks in bed because I am convinced there is a serial killer in my house  – even though it is usually my puppy walking around on the hardwood!).  I stopped watching last season when they fired all the female actors, but caught up over the summer when they hired them back.  It is one of those shows that I don’t advertise that I watch, but I can talk about in great detail if someone brings it up!

Inspiring picture:

This is my puppy, Remy.  How can I not be inspired when I have this to go home to?

September 26, 2011 Posted by | a case of the Mondays, Fire Up for Fall (FUFF), General Nerdiness, guilt, Remy | , , , , , | 3 Comments

Fire Up for Fall #1!

I’m a wicked lurker.  I read a ton of blogs every day, but I keep quiet and don’t really say much.  It is like small talk at a party – so overwhelming.  I know I was a theater major and I teach community college classes at night – put me in front of a crowd and I am fine.  Put me in a one on one interaction and I am an anxious mess.

However, when I saw the Fire Up for Fall (FUFF) on Weight Wars, I thought it would be a good way to meet some bloggers and set some realistic, fun and focused goals.  On Mondays, I will be answering the questions they send me and posting a picture that inspires me.  Fall is my favorite time of year, so hopefully FUFF (that sounds a little dirty, doesn’t it?!) will make this one even better!

What are my goals for the Fall Challenge?

  1. Get my eating under control.  Between the hurricane, the bathroom remodel, major work stress, and many, many etc.’s, I’ve lost my healthy habits and gained a few pounds.  I’d like to get back to a place where I am.  Mini goals:
    • Have a protein based breakfast that includes a piece of fruit
    • Have small, protein and carb based snacks
    • Bring my lunch to work (as I tend to black out in the cafeteria and end up with a roll and a bowl of cereal) with a protein, a vegetable, and a one-serving carb (rather than a plate of stuffing – which is delicious, but not nutritious).
    • Plan yummy dinners for me and my guy that include new vegetables that we don’t usually have
  2. Find two days to do my cardio each week.  I am really into going to Boot Camp three days a week and that serves as my strength routines.  Although, we do some cardio there, I want to work on my endurance (especially as one of my 33 things I want to do this year is to run a 12 minute mile and I only have 2 months or so until I turn 34).  This would also have me working out 5 days a week, which is where I want to be.  Cardio doesn’t have to be crazy – it could be a nice walk with Remy and my guy at the state park, a bike ride (I REALLY want a bike), or a nice jog on these awesome fall mornings.
  3. Eat dinner at the table at least 2 times a week.  In the three years that we have owned our house, we’ve eaten dinner at the table twice – both times with guests over.  The table ends up being a catch-all for books, bags, and clutter.  I am trying to get control of my afternoons (see #4), but I also think I would eat more mindfully at the table, and Brian and I might actually talk – rather than zombie out to Family Guy, or whatever.
  4. Do not sit in front of the tv until 7PM on Monday and WednesdaysDon’t even turn it on.  I am a lazy, lazy girl.  I am also a girl severely affected by momentum.  If I leave work and go DO SOMETHING(be it make dinner, clean the bathroom, work in my garden, go for a walk), I’m good to go for an active afternoon.  If I leave work, get home, and sit on the couch because Food Network or Cooking Channel is on, I’m there until I go to bed.  I need to fight inertia – once I’ve sit, I’m sat.  Tuesday and Thursdays, I have boot camp and this doesn’t happen because I am out the door after I’ve run home to change and snack.  Fridays is a dinner/shopping date with my best friend.  There is so much I could get done on Monday and Wednesdays if I just didn’t get sucked in.  Mini goals:
    • Dust my bedroom and living room once a week
    • Clean my bathroom once a week
    • Clean my kitchen each night
    • Clean my kitchen floor once a week
    • Take Remy somewhere fun once a week

    These make me look like a slob (it’s not that I don’t clean, I just tend to get so overwhelmed by it that I start major cleaning initiatives at 11PM on a Sunday, which exhausts me).

  5. Get on a better sleep schedule.  I’ve been a mess the past few weeks between the hotels and stress.  I also try and stay up with my guy every night, which only leads to bickering and exhaustion.  With working out more, I need to be more concerned with getting at least 7 hours of sleep a night and less concerned with my shows (that is what the dvr is for).  So, I hope to be in bed around 10:30 Sunday-Thursday and up by 8:30/9 on the weekends.
  6. Track my progress.  I am in a constant battle with numbers.  I tend to make super-rigid goals that I have no chance at keeping and then feel like a failure when I don’t live up to my extreme expectations that I just wallow in my bad habits.  On the other hand, I love crossing items off lists and feeling like I accomplished something.  I read The Happiness Project, by Gretchen Rubin, and it really spoke to me about how I look to others to validate my successes.  I can give myself a gold star – I don’t need to puppy dog eye my guy into doing it. Hopefully the goals I’ve made here aren’t so out of reach that I can’t see the good in trying.  So there may be a check list/spreadsheet in my future.

Why have I chosen these goals?

I tried to explain above, but, in general, I have such an opportunity right now during my semester away from teaching to start some awesome and healthy new habits.  I don’t want to look back at the past 6 months and be the same – I want to evolve into a happier and healthier person.  I did purposefully stay away from lbs lost goals as they tend to make me give up the moment the scale goes up.  I want to focus more on feeling better than actual weight lost.

What have I done this week that’s made me feel fabulous?

The past week?!  Oh, gosh.  I went to boot camp three times in one week for the first time last week.  Thursday night, the instructor was my partner for the Muy Thai combinations and I pulled myself together after a horrid day at work to not accidentally punch him in the face or burst into tears (both a real danger that night).  On Saturday, there were only two of us there (TOO MUCH INDIVIDUAL ATTENTION – SOS – MAYDAY), but I was able to stick with the circuits we were doing and work at my own pace.  AND I did one handed rows while balancing on one foot.  YAY BOOT CAMP!

What do I think will be my biggest challenge in reaching my goals?

My biggest problem is always consistency.  I am really good the first day, and then life happens and I just give up.  I really want to commit and see some improvement.

Fun Question: Where in the world do I live?  What’s amazing about it?

I live in Rockland, Massachusetts on the east coast of the US.  I have never described it as “amazing” before, but I guess it is pretty nice to be so close to active and fun cities (Boston and Providence), but still have a somewhat neighborhood-ish feel to where our house is.  I like that I am not too far from a supermarket or movie theater, but not so close that I don’t see trees or stars.

Inspiring Picture:

I am trying to take better pictures.  I really like the light in it.  It is a tree near an old Fort on Nantasket Beach and is appropriately fall-ish!

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September 19, 2011 Posted by | 33 Things to do While I'm 33, boot camp, Fire Up for Fall (FUFF), guilt, photography, Who am I? | , , | 10 Comments

A Better Outlook and Less Snakes for One, Please…

Last week was overwhelming.  Hence, radio (blog) silence.

There are major changes going on at my day job.  I still have a job, which is wonderful, but my role and boss and structure will be changing and we are currently in a month of limbo and I just hate it.  Not knowing is not fun.

And, then, my guy went to New Hampshire for the weekend (which is usually no biggie – I am not as hysterical being home alone anymore – bumps in the night are not my friend).  However, as we were saying goodbye with a rousing game of fetch (with the puppy, of course, not just the two of us as that would be super weird), he told me to back away into the house.  I should have listened to him (but don’t tell him I said that), but I stepped forward instead and there it was.  A snake.  A SNAKE!

…ok.  It was a tiny little garden snake.  But, it was a snake all the same.  Creepy, slimy little buggers.  When I went to take the puppy out later that night – in flip flops and my glasses – something wet and slimy touched my foot.  It was probably a lead, but, in my head, it was the SNAKE!  I tried to run, hit the edge of the deck with my poor big toe and sliced it down the side and basically fell into the house.

I have one of those dogs that always looks like he is smiling, but, I swear, this time he was laughing at me.

I didn’t totally give up on the week, though, which is a huge win for me.

  • I still went to boot camp (Thursday night for Muy Thai punches and kicks, Saturday for the circuit – which I probably should have skipped with my toe and all…  I spent the rest of the weekend icing that and my knee.  Turkish Get Ups are not my friend either).
  • I didn’t get fast food or movie popcorn while my guy was gone (I tend to use his absence as an excuse to go back to my secret single behaviors involving McDonalds and buttered popcorn as my only food sources).
  • I dyed my hair reddish and did a lot of thinking.  This is my first semester not teaching (as my second job) and I really want to use my time to be happier and have fun.

And, I still planned out my first week of easing into Eating Clean.  My kickass friend Jill (who is super inspiring!) has had a lot of success with it.  My goal is to work up to “eating clean” for 80% of the time, so I can enjoy my 20% without the guilt I have been feeling lately.  I feel like I am always thinking about food, which is not where I want to live my life.  I want to  stress less, eat better, move around, and SMILE MORE.  Life is not that bad.  I need to cheer up, ASAP!

For example, I get to work at 7:45 and have a bowl of cereal and a Nutri-Grain bar.  By 9AM, I’m hungry, so I have some fig newtons.  By 11AM, I am starving, so I have a roll and another Nutri-Grain bar for “lunch…”  And, on it goes.

I am hoping that my incorporating some of the Eating Clean principles into my diet, it will help me have the energy to do everything that I want to do…  I only have 3 months or so to finish my 33 Things to do While I am 33 list – I need to get moving!

This week’s Smile More Goals:

  • Have a protein, complex carb, and fruit/vegetable at every meal
  • Try three new recipes and write about them
  • Have an awesome anniversary dinner with my guy this weekend
  • Get some sleep
  • Take 4 walks
  • Stop taking everything so seriously

August 22, 2011 Posted by | 33 Things to do While I'm 33, a case of the Mondays, boot camp, eating clean, guilt, Remy, smile more goals, Who am I? | , , | Leave a comment

I Need to Focus on my 80%

I keep gaining weight.  I know it’s just five pounds and, in the long run, it won’t matter, but I am super-frustrated.  Not at the five pounds.  At myself.

For the longest time, I kept telling myself it was muscle.  Like, “I’m not at a plateau, I’m just gaining SO MUCH muscle from boot camp that it is negating my weight loss because I’m so out of shape.”  Or, “I gained weight this week, but it’s muscle.  I can tell.”

I can’t tell.  And I don’t think it is muscle, anymore.  It’s my eating habits.

I’ve been working out consistently for the first time in my life.  I go to boot camp twice a week.  I run at the gym on Tuesdays.  I wear my pedometer and try and be as active as I can (even walking around my work in this freaking humidity so that my hair looks like the love child between a perm and an unkempt potted plant).  I actually like exercising.  I look forward to boot camp.  I get excited when I can finally do a curl and press with the 12lb weights and get them both pressed at the same time (up until Saturday, I had to lift one at a time because I thought I’d crack my head open – HUGE win!).  When I run at the gym, I am super-hyped because I am RUNNING!  Not walking.  It is awesome and I love it.

But I keep gaining weight.

It was both vanity and my desire to be fit(ish) that pushed me to start eating better and begin working out (6 months of being weak and sick with vacation pics where I was 40lbs heavier are great motivators, haha).  I joined WW Online.  I started (and stopped and started and stopped) walking on a treadmill at the gym.  I made an effort.  Then, my workouts got kicked up a notch when I joined boot camp and I’ve been really consistent ever since with the working out.  But, WW gets old for me and I start lying on my tracker (or not tracking at all).  Then, I stop bringing my lunch and go back to having cheezits and fig newtons or potato chips and oreos.  Then, I make cereal a dessert and it is no wonder I am gaining weight.

I keep reading that losing weight is 20% what you put in at the gym and 80% what you put into yourself (which fuels what your body does before, during, and after the gym).  I need to start focusing on what I am eating so I don’t slide back to where I was.  But, I love food.  I watch food tv every afternoon.  I am trying to learn how to cook (trying and learn being the operative words – who knew you could roast a chicken upside down?!).  I don’t want to become super manic about what, when, and how I eat, but I need to find a way to eat better food.  Real food.  That doesn’t come out of box.

I’m easing into this.  Extremes are not my friend.  This week, I am focusing on bringing my lunch every day (yay chicken and veggies) and not having cereal for dinner.  Next, I am going to read up on whole food based eating plans.  I don’t want to give up yummy food (or bread.  Or dessert.  Or cookies.), I just want to eat BETTER yummy food.

We’ll see.  At least I know I’m the problem.  Now I need to be the solution.

August 8, 2011 Posted by | a case of the Mondays, back story, boot camp, guilt, my hair, Running, Who am I? | , , | 2 Comments

Other People’s Birthdays Were the Perfect Excuse…

My boyfriend’s birthday was yesterday; obviously, we have spent the entire week celebrating (even though he didn’t want an actual party or cake or anything…  men. ugh.)…  It has been a week of movie popcorn and sushi and ice cream with one of the nieces (not the best combo, by the way) and eating out and….  fun.  it has been a whole lot of fun.  Amazingly, I am not feeling guilty about it.

My downfall is usually the snowball effect of guilt.  Oh, I messed up this one meal, so I’ll give up on the day (week, month, etc.).  Oh, I missed the gym this week, I should just stop going altogether.  It is so easy to fall into that cycle, that I’ve made myself into this weird yoyo healthy person – I’m either really, really healthy or I’m really, really not.

One of my goals this year has been to stop that drama.  There has to be a difference between setting and achieving goals and making unattainable plans for myself so that I am basically setting myself up to fail.  So, I didn’t make it to the gym to run this week – I did a whole lot of walking though and I still went to bootcamp last night (on his actual birthday – with his blessing, of course) and worked my booty off.  I even got a “good job” on my squats, which totally made my month.  And I may have been eating like a madwoman, but I’ve only been having half portions of all the wonderful crap everywhere, got back on my healthy breakfast track (yay, yogurt!) and have some healthy eating meals already to go next week.

I have been seeing a lot of changes in my body lately (which is what is to be expected when you lose 35 pounds and start exercising for the first time in your life), which shows progress in and of itself as I am no longer avoiding mirrors like the plague.  Oh, there are my cheek bonesOh, there are my hips again.  But, I’ve wondered if I am actually changing my habits or playing at a part (oh, here is what I would be if I was healthy – it is hard being a lapsed theater major, haha).  I think weeks like this prove that I am evolving.  I’m not beating myself up or using everything as an excuse; I’m living in (and very much enjoying) the moment while still trying to be closer to healthy and fit than I ever have.

I’m not a summer person (bring on the fall, please!?!), but I am really enjoying this one.  It is amazing what a shift in mindset can do…

July 22, 2011 Posted by | birthdays, boot camp, guilt, Who am I? | Leave a comment