Cubicle to Fit-ish

How a wimp becomes fit(ish)

I Totally Ran!

I’ve read so many articles about how you should identify yourself as an athlete to feel more like one; it motivates you to think “I am a cyclist,” even if you can barely make it down the street with training wheels.  It just never worked for me.  I never stick with things long enough to feel strong enough to be a something.  I was stuck in a simile (I am LIKE a runner, except that I am walking), rather than being a metaphor…

When I was training for the 5K last summer and fall, I never even felt like a runner.  It was so disappointing to keep trying to actually run (or jog), and just fail at it time after time.  Maybe I needed to be more dedicated to my C25K plan, but I could never run for more than 45 seconds – and it was more like run for 45 seconds, walk for 10 minutes, run for 30 seconds, walk to my car…

The 5K was in October and was the beginning of me being really sick.  I walked the whole thing and ended up in another bunch of tests, specialists, hives, ensure, etc. that lasted through the winter.  I lost a whole lot of weight, but I lost a lot of my strength (and there wasn’t a lot to begin with!), as well.  Coming out of it, I did join Weight Watchers online and went to the gym sporadically.  All I did there, though, was walk on the treadmill.  I never pushed myself.

Then, six weeks ago, I started bootcamp.  After our first promotion test last week – we find out if we passed tonight – I could see a little difference from where I started.  I did a lot more sit-ups; I held a plank for almost a minute without my booty in the air.  My attitude was “maybe I get promoted, maybe I don’t.”  I can see myself improving.

But, I guess the universe always surprises us when we least expect it.  I decided to go back to the gym 1 or 2 times a week because a) I’m paying for it and b) I think 2 promotions up we have to start going to bootcamp 3 times a week and I am so not ready for that physically.  I feel like I lose a lot of progress Saturday-Wednesday when I am not exercising.  Last Tuesday, I went to Planet Fitness (and it was empty – YAY good weather) and mosey up to my favorite treadmill (back corner).  For some reason, I decided to try running, just to see how long I could go.  Why not?  I was supposed to be in better shape.  1 minute went by… then 2… then 3… and, well, you get the picture.  I ran for 5 straight minutes.  It was like a miracle.  I alternated running for 5 minutes and walking for 2 or 3 minutes for 45 minutes and it was such a huge moment for me.  I totally was a runner.  I wished I had more celebratory music on my IPOD for the occasion…  Adele and Bo Burnham were not cutting it

Hopefully the good vibes will carry over to class tonight.  No matter what happens, I am fitter (or –isher) than I was, and that is what is important.  I don’t care about promotions or placing in races or any of that – I just want to be stronger and healthier.  YAY JUNE!


June 23, 2011 - Posted by | back story, boot camp, Running


  1. Yay! Good for you on the running. I play this game on the treadmill it’s called…”I’m going to beat all of you bitches on a cardio machine.” Then I run and try and outlast anyone who is on a cardio machine in my view. I had a huge victory once where I was battling this girl (unfortunately she didn’t know she was involved in the battle)she was going like the super skinny rockstar she was…and then she dropped…oh no wait…she’s just getting on the stairmaster…bitch! I couldn’t let her beat me so I kept running until she did finally drop. I looked down and it had been 47 minutes! So of course I said to myself that I wasn’t stopping and was doing a full hour…which I did.

    Comment by HotChildInandAroundtheCity | June 23, 2011 | Reply

    • I love, love, LOVE your game! I do the same thing with planks and wall sits in class. We don’t always get to know how long we are doing things and am so motivated by knowing I’ve made it 30 seconds, 1 minute, etc. and seem to lose motivation when it is just me and my mind. So I’ve started looking at other people’s feet or hands and seeing if I can beat the girl with the really fun pedicure or whatever. Or, I see how many times I can sing the alphabet to myself during wall sits. I just the negative thoughts I get in my head if I am not focused!

      And, um, 1 hour is CRAZY! How awesome are you?

      Comment by Nerd Girl Thinks | June 24, 2011 | Reply

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